It’s been a minute since I’ve published a blog. As much as I’d like to make up an excuse like life got in the way, I got too busy with work etc. etc. the truth is I’d rather not. I’ve always been real with my regular readers, and I’d be robbing you of the truth if I were to make up an excuse for my absence. The reality is, I just wasn’t in a good place. I have been struggling with writing a blog. It’s not that I don’t have topics or countries to write travel blogs on, but it’s more so lately my writing has been critiqued a lot. Constructive criticism is always good, it helps you improve. I can deal with people loving my writing and I can deal with people hating my writing, what I can’t deal with is, people insinuating that my writing isn’t good enough without any rhyme or reason. This has got me to the point, where I just don’t know what to write because I feel that it won’t be good enough.
I am a complex person and often find it difficult to explain to people why I feel like so. I do try very hard to not worry too much about what other people think of me, however, if you’ve read my blog, Me Too, you’ll know that I’m the first to blame myself for anything that goes wrong. In any situation, I feel like it’s me who’s made the mistake or is being the burden in the group. I know this isn’t right, but I can’t help it, I’m just wired that way. No, this is not my way of fishing for compliments, it’s just a way of explaining my struggles.
So, with all of this going on, I thought it was perhaps easier to take a little break from writing blogs. One week went by, two weeks went by and before I knew it, it was almost two months. I kept telling myself that I’ll start posting again, once all of my videos from Fiji have been uploaded, which is still a decent 4-5 weeks away, but the reality is, I was just running away from it. In turn what did that do? It made me miserable. I stopped investing time doing something that I love but instead let my feelings be clouded by someone else’s opinion. But I have to realise that at the end of the day I won’t be able to make everyone happy, I’m not bacon. I just have to do the things that make me happy and keep at it. So, with that being said, I will make more of an effort to be active on my YouTube channel and my blogging website, because I absolutely love being creative (in whatever limited way) and sharing my travel stories.
Until next time,